Friday, August 18, 2006

Brain spew

For some stupid reason I always feel pressure to have a funny post. I guess its because the friends I have that blog are well...funny. Im just not a writer who can be funny or even entertaining. Im a realist people and Im not sorry for that. I don't sugar coat things and sometimes I get in negative moods and this is my outlet. I am an angry writer. I write when I am down, sad, frustrated, jaded and full out furious. If you dont like it, dont read on!

People have really pissed me off today. I have realized that I might be a little too easily hurt by the people in my life: friends, family and boyfriend. I can't stand people who are two faced. I dont like that some people are still connected to my circle when I want them out. I can't stand people who define being a good person by their religion but can be rude and hurtful to others and not even think its wrong because the person they are being rude to doesnt share their faith and therefore is deserving of lesser-than treatment. And I dont even care that that was a run-on sentence or that I just started a sentence with "and".

And why do people have to die. Why does a healthy 23 year old guy have to get cancer and why does that great guy have to die at 26? These are questions that have no answer but I want to ask them. The world lost some of its laughter when he died, its not fair. Sometimes being a grown up sucks; I dont like having to deal with grown up stuff.

The fact is...Im not perfect. I dont have a perfect relationship. I dont know what I want to do with the rest of my life. I'm not always in control. People die. It hurts. I hurt. And I dont like it.


At 10:26 AM, Blogger anika said...

Life is shit sometimes, chica.


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